Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Happy Birthday to mE

Its 23 Feb 2011..
Im 23 years old officially..

On my birthday eve, I went for a dinner outing with my beloved dental buddies..
Food at Traffic light Cafe, Damansara Utama is quite nice.
After that counting down my birthday at MidV Cinema Hall 1 for "Santum"
Came back home got a big suprise Shock from xinnee and shwu min..
Thanks anywhere.. Like to be remembering by your guys..

My wish for this year
1. Got an offer to intern at a BANK.
2. Pass my exam with better result than last sem.
3. Do well in the post that gonna be hold in PEKUMA soon
4. Can declare my status as NA officially sooner

Sunday, February 20, 2011

outing n outing

19-02-2011
Its great to have another day trip with my lovely gacc mts. Love to be together with 11 just like last time.
At first we planned to go Tanjung Sepat de. But Jef suddenly complained he gonna back office at nite and he asked to change another place.
End up I saw my little red crab key chain in the morning and i thought of Pulau Ketam. So after dim sum at SS2 Tian Yuan and everyone agree on the new destination, we headed up to Port Klang.
I like the feeling so much where someone suggest on an idea and then we can immediate follow on that plan.
We reached the port on 12+pm, thought to wait for the fisherman ship but there is no such ship at the jetty, we just took the air-con fast boat to the island.
It took 45 min to reach there. Its at the sharp noon and the sun is shining hot and sharp to welcome us. No one can bear the sunshine and we walked to a restaurant to have our lunch with half fulled stomach.
Crabs, lala, Prawn, Sotong are all the seafood that we had as lunch. Although the food is not so delicious, but the important is to meet 11 people and have an outing together and the taste of food is no longer a big focus for us.
After lunch we had a short walk along the fishing village. 4pm its our time to say goodbye and left the island.
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20-02-2011
Its another outing with Jas and Ah C at midv.
Had a noodle lunch and watched a nice movie- Burlesque
Honestly i join them just because of the movie that draw my interest.
Luckily the movie did not make me disappointed as well.
Nice singing and sexy dancing.
Although im quiet and do not have any interesting topic to chat, im still be remembering by them and that's enough.

Monday, February 14, 2011

PEkuMA

At the beginning, i expect i can learn more soft skills through PEKUma.
yup, i get to know many seniors expecially liks and tien how who are the most intelligent and excellent economic guys.
They help me a lots in academic by giving me their notes and tips.
But,i expect more from PEkUma.
I thought there is a strong connection among all memebers like previous in GACC.
I thought people would have same feeling like me that cant wait for every meeting time.
I thought once we join in the club then all will give full commitment and responsibility to the club.
I thought there is more activities that bring me closer to outside campus and get approach with other people to boarden my connection.

But its half sem left,
PeKuma still the same as last yr.
It make me feel that there is nothing i can be proud with the club except FEA Nite.

I expect stronger leadership between HOD and dept, but it fails.
I expect closer relationship between seniors and juniors. but it fails.
I expect more from PEKuma, but it didnt work.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

完了

今晚从8+pm去唱k到2+am,超好玩的一次outing..
嘉豪搞笑及热情融化了大家,把场面搞得超high的,爽!
阿c原来有把好听的嗓子,他的情歌好好听。
晚上他们还要继续去喝茶,但我却主动提出要回家了,反常。

心情很烂的一天
从决定行程那刻就觉得大家顾虑太多,到最后还被遗漏独自在阿佩家超呆的,不爽极了。
从昨晚开始多余地以为他还会有所行动,甚至还去考虑是否跟他再续情缘,真的好傻。
就原来诗韵知道很多他的秘密,原来她已经盘问过他了。
他说他对我已经没有东西了,而他也不会再追求我的了。
到底这算什么啊?
曾经以为他是考虑很认真才会来追求我的
曾经以为他是有为我们的未来想过的
从一开始的好朋友关系升温到情侣关系对我是个很复杂的心理难关
当我以为我们会长久的时候却被他爸的逝世而重大地影响他的一切
当我以为他会更珍惜身边人的时候他却把自己封闭起来
当我以为他会不轻易放弃我们感情的时候他却选择退回原点做会朋友
当我以为他会继续维持我们的友情时他却对我视而不见,不闻不问
当我以为半年后他或许会来找回我时他却说他已没有东西了
那之前他到底是以什么心情去追求我的呢?
是真的有认真爱过我?是真的有为我们的未来想过?
如果是真的,那么半年里就可以把一切变得没有东西了吗??
那么我真的对他之前的感情有所保留,他不值得我再为他牵挂,担心了。。
这次确定是要放掉他了。

Friday, February 4, 2011

期待明天

明天年初三要跟大家去怡保玩咯。
十个人两辆车,我们四姐妹又再次聚在一起了。
期待。。 兴奋。。

明天他会驾车去,我应该会坐他的车。
那么明天我又是否可以有机会和他讲话呢?
你最近好吗?
读书最近怎样?
你妈还好吗?

其实我到现在还想知道他是否对我还有情。。
如果有,那他为何不联络回我呢?
还是他已经放下了我?
我真的太会想象了,满脑子都在幻想和他的事。
如果他还有意,这次不可以那么快答应他了?
但我是否应该再给他机会呢?
我不是说好要放弃他的了吗??

Thursday, February 3, 2011

我也有错吗?

新年快乐
昨晚喝茶又遇到他了,但就是开不了口和他说话。
是他太被动?还是我不主动呢?
但我就是不要再像以前那样先踏出那一步让他习惯。
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去年的今天是很值得期待的。
第一次去他家拜年见亲戚。
第一次去聚会
第一次过个属于我们的情人节
为什么我就是那么放不下??
我真的不该再想回去了。。

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

真的没意义了

很无聊地熬过聚会的那一小时,很想快快离开,但却觉得太不给脸了。
出席的人才十三个人,那些一年才见一次的都没有出现。
是大家都在忙?没时间?还是大家都也觉得没意义了呢?

终于又见到他了,但他还是没开口跟我说句话。
哪怕是“你好吗”,或简单的一句“嗨”。。 都没有。
最不想遇到这种情形的了- 分手后还能做会朋友吗?
真的没多少个人能做会朋友,真的很难。
心里的那一道伤几时才能复合呢?