Maybelline Clear Smooth Minerals B.B Cream - My favourite BB Cream

Name of Product: Maybelline Clear Smooth Minerals B.B Cream


The Product Claims:

"Our Instant Skin Perfecting Cream is a perfect blend of 8 mineral ingredients. The unique earth colour shade instantly improves and perfects your skin:

1) Brighten skin: visible whitening effect

2) Covers imperefections: reduce the appearance of pores, skin redness disappears

3) Moisturisers + Protects: all day hydration + helps to protect skin from UV rays and free radicals"

My Review:

1st Part

Basically, this B.B Cream promised to help achieve 3 effects (as above): brighten, covers and moisturises+protects. And, in my opinion, this tiny tube of product actually delivers what it promised!

1) Brightening Effect: This B.B cream does a really good job of brightening my skin tone. It really add radience to my skin w/o making it look frosty. However, the downside is that the effect is not long lasting. The brightening effect will actually wear off after a couple of hours. I did a mini experiment and found out that the brightening effect can be prolonged by setting the B.B cream with some loose powder/ pressed powder.

2) Coverage: This skin perfector has fairly decent coverage for a B.B cream. It definitely helps to reduce the appearance of redness but it's not so helpful when it comes to covering up pores. If I have to rate its coverage upon 10, I would give it a 7.

3) Moisturising Effect: Definitely not a very moisturising product in my opinion. If you are looking for a B.B cream for a dewy look, then this Maybelline B.B cream is definitely not for you. This product will give you a "matte" glow instead of a dewy shine. I'll definitely advise people with dry skin to apply moisturiser prior ro the B.B Cream.

2nd Part

This B.B Cream is great for people with normal and oily/combination skin in my opinion. It actually enables my complexion to stay matte for a long period of time. Even my T zone area remained oil free after several hours of wear. I really like the formulation of this B.B Cream because it's not oily at all and the cream feels very light on my skin. The product has a watery and non-sticky texture and so it spreads VERY easily making application a very easy task. Plus, it's absorbed into my skin very quickly and I have yet to observe any sliding effects whatsoever.


Would I buy it again: Yes, I would!

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全新的pekuma

四月十二日是pekuma的AGM，而我也以多票数成为了第一副主席。
接手后有很多事都必须由我们自己去解决了，以前都有添豪和Liks的帮忙，但现在已不能了。
看回liks做的短片真的另我有点感触，原来一年里大家曾为同样的活动付出了那么多。
fea nite, career path 真的令我学到了很多。
认识他们真的是我的荣幸。
接下来的我们是否也可以做的像他们那样好吗？ 还是可以比他们更好。
好开心那天下午和garrick谈了很多关于pekuma的未来
原来我们并没有看错人 选错主席
他原来也有认真地规划未来
不可缺少的I Week和fea night
每学期一刊的juniornomist，更多不同的新内容
全新的ECON DAY在KPS，各种不同的活动，讲座与展览
希望这一切将会一一实行。

丧礼

昨晚出席了大姨婆媳夫的丧礼，在那儿碰见了很多不大熟悉的亲戚。
大家都是给面子老人家才会抽空出席的，年轻的一辈大多数都不大联络了，也不在乎了。
我更加年轻，更本没人认识我，大姨婆也用了几秒钟才想起她有这么一个侄孙。
****
死者大约40+岁，好像是位医生。
由于患有乳癌，昨天突然病发就离开了。
看见死者的丈夫缅怀手机里与他妻子在两星期前拍下的合照，真的令人惋惜。
未来真的是未知数，真的要孝顺父母，享受人生。

A packed week for CP2011

Last week was really busy..
Busy with studies?? No.. Its busy with Career Path 2011.
Pekuma had taken over the opportunity to be the organising club from Section Counselling and I was one of the member.
The event was on 22-24 March 2011 at DTC.
Although I was interested in finding the participation of company, I did not join that sales & marketing department. I am under Liks in finance department.
Anywhere, I do enjoyed the preparation time I spent with them.
However, due to someone fault, we had to spent time and energy to do some 'sticker' on the program book. Suppose there was higher officer that did the checking before approving it, dunoe how the people do their work and cause this mistake. Its not one or two mistakes, but its total 11 mistakes in the printed book.
There was also people that acting, ordering and complaining us since she got that little power as the assistant of Pn Nisma. yeah, its MElody Teoh- second yr account student that is pro in changing face to different people. Black face to us and smiling face to Pn and companies' people. Damn her..
I did make many new friends there. just not sure will we say Hi when meet up later?
And one more, I took many many Nestle goodies home.
20 Chicken stock in botols, milo, teh tarik, maggie mee, glasses and note books.
hahaha.. I did not even step in lecture hall last whole week.
Anywhere, its all end.. I still left 2 more weeks to go and i still did not touch on studies. Every time plan to do continuous study but just end up rush revision in study week.
This is how the life of student in University.. Haha

Nihongo- Japanase Language

你好 （哭你一起挖） 我回来啦 （他大姨妈）　　 哥哥 （哦尼桑）　　 可爱 （卡哇咿）　　 怎么？ （哪尼）　　 你好帅 （卡酷咿）　　 原来如此 （哪里糊涂）　　 我吃了 （一打卡玛斯）　　 早上好 （我还要狗炸一玛斯）　　 怎么可能 （玛撒卡） 好厉害 （自由咿）　　 谢谢 （啊丽牙多）　　 怎么啦 （都西大）　　 偷一下懒 （傻不你呦）　　 这可不行 （所里挖那里蚂蚁）　　 为什么？ （男的诶）　　 那是什么 （男的所里挖）　　 什么意思？ （满家所里挖）　　 笨蛋 （八噶）　　 我明白啦 （挖卡打蛙）　　 这是 （库里挖）　　 加油 （刚巴黎）　　 搞定啦！ （亚当！）　　 朋友 （偷猫打鸡）　　 不行 （打妹）　　 说的也是 （受打内）　　 太好啦！ （有疙瘩！）　　 真的？ （轰！逗你）　　 小姐 （我揪下嘛）　　 不要啊！ （呀灭蝶！）　　 可恶 （扣手）　　 对不起 （狗咪那啥咿）　　 没关系 （一挖呦）　　 不要紧吧？ （带胶布？）　　 约会 （带兜）　　 是的 （嗨）　　 晚安 （哦压死你）　　 到此为止 （哭了妈的）

证书重要吗？？

今天去了hep问关于我们pekuma下届大选的手续后，有知道了另一个秘密
原来pekuma只有四个正式的最高委员-主席，副主席，秘书，财政
而第二主席和我这副秘书并不被校方承认了
换句话说我并不会得到由校方发出的证书了
证书其实重要吗？？
虽然并不是很重要，但想到为pekuma付出了那么多却连少少一张证书都没有
有点不甘心叻。。

原来他喜欢上了natalie

原以为主席会是我的选择
但没想到今天却知道了一个大秘密
他原来在追求natalie,我的系友
还听说他快成功了 T.T
完了，人家又漂亮又有气质，我要怎么比啊？
怎么我的命那么的苦？
第一个（永其），第二个（庆良），第三个(wei beng)，第四个（主席）
难道我就这么没人喜欢吗??
适合我的都不喜欢我。。

我太猖狂了吗？

今天七点多突然兴致一起，按了个短讯给wei beng。

" Thanks for the simple celebration last nite, its really touching and sweet.
I　got a question dunoe shud i ask or nt.
Since we r single, is ther any possibility between us for not just be as friend?
take your time to think on it. Haha
If you are not single, just forget this msg and we are still good friend."

真难想像他受到如此的短讯会有什么反应呢？　哈哈。。

GaCC Annual ReunioN DinNer

Today is GaCC Annual Reunion Dinner at Pitstop.
ALthough its not held at a hotel ballroom, we sill happy to attend the gathering as to meet up with our friends.
We reached ther late around 7.30pm and The gathering started on 8+pm.
No one come to us and we jus stack to our gang.
Anywhere,its happy to see Jef, a busy workman managed to make himself to the dinner.
And the funny wei beng was being locked in between his house door and gate for some time. Lastly he reached pitstop too.
The event then started with 'meal time' for quite a long period. Its boring.
Then start the game section by dividing into 4 or 5 groups to play 'tower up'.
after a long section of the same game, there was lucky draw time.
The event ended on 12am and we went for our second round at Jaya One.
Did not expect they still remember kok soon and my birthday celebration.
Although its just a simple card( done by soo ee) and two small slices of cakes, I really happy and touching.
The only wish i got is i wish to have gathering with them at least once a year after they graduate. Perhaps we wont leave behind our friendship.

ps: There were two absence- soo ee and chin yee
The more frequent i met wei beng, the more feeling i have to him.
But i knew its impossible to have any relationship with him unless he starts it.

Happy Birthday to mE

Its 23 Feb 2011..
Im 23 years old officially..

On my birthday eve, I went for a dinner outing with my beloved dental buddies..
Food at Traffic light Cafe, Damansara Utama is quite nice.
After that counting down my birthday at MidV Cinema Hall 1 for "Santum"
Came back home got a big suprise Shock from xinnee and shwu min..
Thanks anywhere.. Like to be remembering by your guys..

My wish for this year
1. Got an offer to intern at a BANK.
2. Pass my exam with better result than last sem.
3. Do well in the post that gonna be hold in PEKUMA soon
4. Can declare my status as NA officially sooner

outing n outing

19-02-2011
Its great to have another day trip with my lovely gacc mts. Love to be together with 11 just like last time.
At first we planned to go Tanjung Sepat de. But Jef suddenly complained he gonna back office at nite and he asked to change another place.
End up I saw my little red crab key chain in the morning and i thought of Pulau Ketam. So after dim sum at SS2 Tian Yuan and everyone agree on the new destination, we headed up to Port Klang.
I like the feeling so much where someone suggest on an idea and then we can immediate follow on that plan.
We reached the port on 12+pm, thought to wait for the fisherman ship but there is no such ship at the jetty, we just took the air-con fast boat to the island.
It took 45 min to reach there. Its at the sharp noon and the sun is shining hot and sharp to welcome us. No one can bear the sunshine and we walked to a restaurant to have our lunch with half fulled stomach.
Crabs, lala, Prawn, Sotong are all the seafood that we had as lunch. Although the food is not so delicious, but the important is to meet 11 people and have an outing together and the taste of food is no longer a big focus for us.
After lunch we had a short walk along the fishing village. 4pm its our time to say goodbye and left the island.
***********
20-02-2011
Its another outing with Jas and Ah C at midv.
Had a noodle lunch and watched a nice movie- Burlesque
Honestly i join them just because of the movie that draw my interest.
Luckily the movie did not make me disappointed as well.
Nice singing and sexy dancing.
Although im quiet and do not have any interesting topic to chat, im still be remembering by them and that's enough.

PEkuMA

At the beginning, i expect i can learn more soft skills through PEKUma.
yup, i get to know many seniors expecially liks and tien how who are the most intelligent and excellent economic guys.
They help me a lots in academic by giving me their notes and tips.
But,i expect more from PEkUma.
I thought there is a strong connection among all memebers like previous in GACC.
I thought people would have same feeling like me that cant wait for every meeting time.
I thought once we join in the club then all will give full commitment and responsibility to the club.
I thought there is more activities that bring me closer to outside campus and get approach with other people to boarden my connection.

But its half sem left,
PeKuma still the same as last yr.
It make me feel that there is nothing i can be proud with the club except FEA Nite.

I expect stronger leadership between HOD and dept, but it fails.
I expect closer relationship between seniors and juniors. but it fails.
I expect more from PEKuma, but it didnt work.

完了

今晚从8+pm去唱k到2+am，超好玩的一次outing..
嘉豪搞笑及热情融化了大家，把场面搞得超high的，爽！
阿c原来有把好听的嗓子，他的情歌好好听。
晚上他们还要继续去喝茶，但我却主动提出要回家了，反常。

心情很烂的一天
从决定行程那刻就觉得大家顾虑太多，到最后还被遗漏独自在阿佩家超呆的，不爽极了。
从昨晚开始多余地以为他还会有所行动，甚至还去考虑是否跟他再续情缘，真的好傻。
就原来诗韵知道很多他的秘密，原来她已经盘问过他了。
他说他对我已经没有东西了，而他也不会再追求我的了。
到底这算什么啊？
曾经以为他是考虑很认真才会来追求我的
曾经以为他是有为我们的未来想过的
从一开始的好朋友关系升温到情侣关系对我是个很复杂的心理难关
当我以为我们会长久的时候却被他爸的逝世而重大地影响他的一切
当我以为他会更珍惜身边人的时候他却把自己封闭起来
当我以为他会不轻易放弃我们感情的时候他却选择退回原点做会朋友
当我以为他会继续维持我们的友情时他却对我视而不见，不闻不问
当我以为半年后他或许会来找回我时他却说他已没有东西了
那之前他到底是以什么心情去追求我的呢？
是真的有认真爱过我？是真的有为我们的未来想过？
如果是真的，那么半年里就可以把一切变得没有东西了吗？？
那么我真的对他之前的感情有所保留，他不值得我再为他牵挂，担心了。。
这次确定是要放掉他了。

期待明天

明天年初三要跟大家去怡保玩咯。
十个人两辆车，我们四姐妹又再次聚在一起了。
期待。。 兴奋。。

明天他会驾车去，我应该会坐他的车。
那么明天我又是否可以有机会和他讲话呢？
你最近好吗？
读书最近怎样？
你妈还好吗？

其实我到现在还想知道他是否对我还有情。。
如果有，那他为何不联络回我呢？
还是他已经放下了我？
我真的太会想象了，满脑子都在幻想和他的事。
如果他还有意，这次不可以那么快答应他了？
但我是否应该再给他机会呢？
我不是说好要放弃他的了吗？？

我也有错吗?

新年快乐
昨晚喝茶又遇到他了，但就是开不了口和他说话。
是他太被动？还是我不主动呢？
但我就是不要再像以前那样先踏出那一步让他习惯。
*********
去年的今天是很值得期待的。
第一次去他家拜年见亲戚。
第一次去聚会
第一次过个属于我们的情人节
为什么我就是那么放不下？？
我真的不该再想回去了。。

真的没意义了

很无聊地熬过聚会的那一小时，很想快快离开，但却觉得太不给脸了。
出席的人才十三个人，那些一年才见一次的都没有出现。
是大家都在忙？没时间？还是大家都也觉得没意义了呢？

终于又见到他了，但他还是没开口跟我说句话。
哪怕是“你好吗”，或简单的一句“嗨”。。 都没有。
最不想遇到这种情形的了- 分手后还能做会朋友吗?
真的没多少个人能做会朋友，真的很难。
心里的那一道伤几时才能复合呢?

如何面对他

明天是我们班的新年聚会，他也会出席。
那我该如何面对他呢？
我并不能缺席，但我并不想再次被他无意的言行举此而伤害。
怎么办？
见到他是否会再被当透明呢？
我不想啊。。
我们几时能做会以前那样好的朋友呢？

没趣的聚会

原本以为不会有人要举行一年一次的新年聚会，但没想到还是有人问我这聚会。
我已经没心机要搞聚会了，因为不懂聚会到底为了什么。
以前为了某个人而不计劳累而一手包办所有食物。
以前为了博取某个人的关心所以都会向他撒娇说累。
但现在我已不被人在乎，没人理睬我的感受了，所以一切变得没意义了。
或许你们会以为我连对朋友都没心
但事实是到底有多少个朋友是真正的朋友呢？
有多少人会主动走过来聊聊天讲讲笑呢？
到底是他们的原因？还是我自己也关闭了我的心，觉得一切已没意义了呢？

遗失了的笑容

新年来了，和朋友聚会了
这些应该都是值得开心的事
但我就是脸笑心不笑
怎么办？
究竟是因为诗韵的话而影响我
还是我被她的话一针见血
我不想如此闷闷不乐
怎么笑啊？

i lost my smiling heart

Im having down down mood recently.
Cannot even laugh happily n truely.
Jus feel like there are something occupy my heart and press it tightly
I dont wish to be like this.
I want back my smile which is truely from heart.
*******
Cny gathering is return back.
But this time im nt going to involve so much n giv too much opinion on it.
I jus wish to throw away the burden of becoming the event organiser anymore
Perhaps this time there is also a successful event for all.

朋友之约

昨晚很想出去看戏，但志霖他们却嫌戏票贵和时间不对所以不要去。
但没想到jas却在这时打电问我要不要去看戏，我当然马上点头say YES..
但她却用了一小时才来到，那时已经10点了。
我们就去midv看还有什么戏可以看-the tourist或笑着回家。
我们最终选了12点20分的《笑着回家》。
这部戏我个人觉得它比天天好天好看，因为它还蛮好笑的。
剧情就跳过不说了。
很享受和jas一起出去聊天的时间，因为我们就是不会过于掩饰自己的情感，都了解对方心底真正的感觉。
我知道大家都有点担心我，但我还是安好的，只是少了那么一点真实，灿烂的笑容罢了。
jas告诉我她妈曾对她说: 嘉慧是乐观的人，你要多参她。。那一刻真的蛮感动的。
曾经我真的是蛮乐观的，但最近却有点点悲了。
********
很意外地又收到宝治的约会，所以我又连续3星期都到时代广场报到。
宝治其实也是个很好的朋友，每次她都会很热情，很关心我的事情。
我原以为她不会告诉我她之前的爱情史，但没想到她却自己爆料出来。
很可惜她不是跟我同一届，不然我们会有机会做更好的朋友。
只是现在她已差不多要毕业了，我们就不能时常见面做好朋友了。

突来得约定

晚上11点家伦打电来问要不要出去喝茶，早已无聊的我当然爽快答应。
我们三人（还有志霖）就不懂要去哪里，差点就要去看半夜场了，但最后因为大家都没准备所以就去《明天》喝茶。
抵达不久秀仪就来电说要来找我们。
大家谈谈下说起美食，就去下一场-甲洞家家肉骨茶。
天啊，真的从没如此爽快，说走就走。
晚上1245，我们就真的去了甲洞吃肉骨茶。
大家还约定每个星期三一起去吃好料。
爽！期待下一次的到来-kuchai lama鱼头米粉。

变心后狠心

今天发了个简讯给欣妮，但却被打退回来了。
当她回来后才说她的电话被割了，而且他是不预先通知就把它割了。
那男生也太没品了吧，真替她感到不值。
一开始由朋友的一些话就结束了六年的感情，之后不管女生怎么样央求也不闻不问。
就算身边亲人怎么样去劝说也不动摇。
现在却可恶地把电话割了，也交了新女朋友。
人真的会在变心后变狠心。

分开了就是分开了

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?ref=home#!/video/video.php?v=193033030711777&oid=175828155779743&comments
这是一个从《非诚无忧》节目剪接下来的短片，但却是由他share在fb的。
片中男女主角因女生一句：我想知道我喜欢的人是否也喜欢我，而在一起五年多，但最后却离婚收场。
女主角不能接受男主角的脾气与态度，多次离开后又被他感动回头。
这次男主角用同样的招数-mv，希望可以在节目里和女主角破镜重圆。
但出乎意料的是女主角虽然眼泪直流，但却狠心地，坚决地不再回到他身边。
节目嘉宾告诉男主角两个条件：以后若她和另一个男人在一起又分开后，而她又感觉你真的变了，你对她的感情还没变，你们就会有机会在一起了。
有参赛者就说：分开了就分开了，就让以前的过去，让未来的就来。
要当面拒绝一个自己曾深爱的男生是需要多么大的勇气及决心的，要不是因为她被伤得遍体鳞伤，爱得累了，没有一个女生会那么狠心的。
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他在看这短片时心情是如何的呢？
他会扮演谁的角色呢？ 会是男主角？还是他赞同参赛者的话？
为什么我就是那么放不开他呢？

挥不散的影子

今天跟朋友去唱k所选的歌都是悲伤情歌，快乐开心的歌都唱不出。
唱k，吃饭，逛街，看戏全都有他的影子。
为何要忘记一个人是那么的辛苦，那么难的呢？
越想忘掉他却越容易想起他。
他会否又会像我一样吗？
不是说好不再想他的吗？
我该怎么办？
去追寻另一段感情？
但我都不会主动去追男生的。
他对我是否有意思吗？
我们又会否有可能吗？

她。他

室友最近情绪很不稳定，时常边听电话边哭泣。
虽然大家见了都很担心，但就不懂得该怎样去安慰她。
我要说的话也都说过了，再讲多也只会让她更烦恼。
她到现在还是不能接受她们分手的事实，就是那么地坚持要等那男生回心转意。
我们大家都知道他已变心了，暂时是不可能挽回的。
只要她还不接受这现实，谁也帮不了她的。

他最近还好吗？
从fb上看来他也变了，变得有点做作，有点假惺惺了。
过了那么久了，他就是没有找过我，一次都没有。
原来之前所说过的一切都是假的，我的存在与否都对他没关系。
既然他可以这么绝情，我又何必再继续对他保存那一点点的希望呢？
朋友们都好奇为何我还那么在意他，他跟我都不相称。
从分开的那天就告诉自己和他没有机会再在一起了，他是那么的自私，
我们的感情是那么的脆弱，那么的经不起考验。
选择是他做的，我也已经接受了这结果，还向怎样？
是时候切断一切了。
以后见到面会否笑得出？会否打招呼？
不要在意了

i will continue be part of PEKUMA

today tien how asked me will i continue to hold post in pekuma for coming new batch?
i guess i had changed my decision since early before.
i think i will continue hold a post in pekuma.
i not sure whether am i the candidate of tien how to take over his post or not from they conversation just now in the meeting.
but i guess i will accept the post if i am being offered the post.

honestly i felt sad and disappointed when i knew the recent result
did not expect to get 2 C+ in a sem, somehow the chocky frank gan come show off his good balancing in studies and activities draw my mood down and down.
luckily i got support from friends after that and when i knew my cgpa is still in 3.37, i just felt relief.
so i will continue my activity in this sem.

Am i changed??

Am i changed recently?
HAd a great nite with my best sisters last night, not going to write down what we had done clearly over here.. hehe.. secret of mine
The whole nite i just keep listening what they said and i did not interupt in much
I thought i was extremely tired and thus lazy to open my mouth to talk.
But they throw a surprise to me

" Dont your guys realize chia hui had changed recently?"
" yaya.. she became quiet and not talkative"
" Agree, she seem like keeping so much problem at her heart and make her look not happy"

Am i really changed?

Rethink back to previous, ya, i still the same would listen what they said but i too would give my opinions to them.
But somehow i found out that i just remain silent during the whole period of gathering recently
I will only talk when someone speak directly to me
Why this happen to me?
Because of him?

I dunoe.. really dunoe
I just feel loneliness recently
No one can even spend some time to concern me and talk with me in a day
Just the feeling is so strong and cover my mood
I need love, no family love
but someone to love, to occupy my loneliness

When the same ending happen in the third time
I guess i will have phobia in love
its so hard to love

This is no longer a secret blog

Someone is hacking into my page
Someone is reading my blog over here
And someone cannot even keep silent and pretend dunoe the appearance of this blog
So i can continue express my feeling here without any limitation

Next time will i still the same write my actual feeling here?
still not so sure
SO.. you
Dont put my address at your blog's friend list ya
If you still hope to read this space...
Hahahahaha

should i feel happy?

that day when i know crystal is the S&M director, i felt nt so happy.
especially when that day meeting im nt the one who sit at front raw.
im nt being chosen this time is because i did not do well in FEA Night? or im nt capable in handling such post?
then how come ho peng fong still can hold the technical post?
because he did well so he is being selected again?

oh god..
i knew i should not have such feeling
but i just cannot control myself.

they did nt chose me this time is just dont wana give me a more heavy n big responsibility.
they knew i worked hard in my job
they knew i will been stressed by the post
they jus like me wana test capability of new ppl
so that's why they not chose me this time
i should feel relief and happy since im out of those heavy stuff
thats what i should feel

i want

eager for outing so much..
but no one to go along with me..
who to ask??
nope...

eager for sms-ing
but no one to sms with..

eager for dating
but no one come chase me

i want somebody to love
how to find someone to love