worrying

This sem got bad result again.. thought can left from the bad result list dy but it come bec to me again.. arghh.. really hate my self..
where is the previous me?
that one who can score good result in final exam in school time.
i miss the feeling of being proud of my own result, not this feeling shame of my bad result.
is it good result means good future and vice vesa?
many friends said its NOT..
when come to work, no one would care ur result in uni.
this just happen same like no one care ur spm result when u in matrix, no one ask ur matrix result in uni.
so, i should not be down n shame bcs of this sem result.

but there is another problem coming.
should i accept the president of pekuma?
at first i dun wana accept it bcs i wish to get rid frm the ppl management staff.
and also worried i cannot balancing my studies and activities.
ya, i really cannot balance both of them.
but some how i feel that i wish to gain more leadership and experience through pekuma.
i wish to have outstanding extra activities portfolio that make me different frm the others.
by this to lead me to good company.
but then hw is my studies once i get the post?
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