Am i changed??

Am i changed recently?
HAd a great nite with my best sisters last night, not going to write down what we had done clearly over here.. hehe.. secret of mine
The whole nite i just keep listening what they said and i did not interupt in much
I thought i was extremely tired and thus lazy to open my mouth to talk.
But they throw a surprise to me

" Dont your guys realize chia hui had changed recently?"
" yaya.. she became quiet and not talkative"
" Agree, she seem like keeping so much problem at her heart and make her look not happy"

Am i really changed?

Rethink back to previous, ya, i still the same would listen what they said but i too would give my opinions to them.
But somehow i found out that i just remain silent during the whole period of gathering recently
I will only talk when someone speak directly to me
Why this happen to me?
Because of him?

I dunoe.. really dunoe
I just feel loneliness recently
No one can even spend some time to concern me and talk with me in a day
Just the feeling is so strong and cover my mood
I need love, no family love
but someone to love, to occupy my loneliness

When the same ending happen in the third time
I guess i will have phobia in love
its so hard to love